My name is Erin and I blog over at Captivated By Grace.
I am a twenty-something girl with a passion for life, love, and above all, my faith in Christ.
I enjoy all things beautiful in this world and look for God's blessings all around me.
Do you suffer from insecurities? Do you have that antagonizing feeling in the pit of your stomach? That voice in your head? That hurt in your heart? You know the one. The one that makes you think less of yourself. The one that makes you feel as if you are not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough. The one that allows you to believe that you are unacceptable and unworthy of love. The one that can shake you to your very core, believe the worst about yourself, and cause you to give up on any form of loving yourself.
Insecurity is paralyzing. It keeps us from the lives that God intended us to live. In no way, does God wants us to live this way. Sometimes, it is just so incredibly hard to stop...
Growing up, I would say that I dealt with a lot of insecurity issues. I was always the girl that looked years younger than my friends. The skinny, gangly girl. It was never much of an issue for me personally until I reached high school. I went into my freshman year weighing around seventy-five pounds. Of course, many of my friends would tease me, accuse me of being sick, and tore me down at their own attempts to feel better about themselves. Did I buy into this? Oh, I sure did.
Fears and insecurities began spewing out of me. I became broken, defeated, and felt so unworthy. Unworthy of acceptance. Unworthy of love. I actually believed that I deserved it. I did not trust God with who I was. I did not realize that I was truly loved by Christ for exactly who I was. I was trying to be someone else, when God already loved me for who I was.
This insecurity slowly went away as I got older. I got taller, put on weight, and filled out. I still look a lot younger than I am, but I am no longer that skinny, gangly girl that I was so ashamed to be when I was younger. This isn't to say that I don't still have insecurity issues. I still struggle with my self image and have started becoming insecure in other areas of my life. I have been struggling with feelings of inadequacy in my relationships, never quite feeling like I am doing good enough. However, I have learned to deal with these thoughts in a much healthier way. The key to every struggle in life....
Do you know that Christ thinks you are amazing? There is nothing about you that He finds unworthy. There is nothing about you that would ever prevent Him from loving you, from caring about you beyond all human understanding. We do not need to work for God's love. We do not need to look a certain way in order to gain His love and acceptance.
It does not matter what others may say, or how they may try to make us feel. We live in a sinful world, one that is full of Satan's temptations to build one another down. We need to remind ourselves that God is the designer of us. He made us in His own image, one that was wonderfully made. One that pleases Him. Yes, we are sinful, but God thinks we are beautiful. We have no reason to doubt ourselves. We need to remember to love one another and to love ourselves.
How amazing that we have the comfort of being loved by God no matter what.
You are beautiful.
Remember to tell yourself that today!